the elements are shattering

16.03 on 9.9

My blog feels so neglected... but of course my huge amount of homework gains priority

14.55 on 9.3

FIRST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL!

16.47 on 8.30

Crap... school's about to start.... I LOOK LIKE A SQUIRREL, just so everyone knows... And my mouth hurts everytime i smile or laugh which makes me not do either of those things which makes me look like a person that hates the world. Extremely bored since all I'm allowed to do is sit around... But happily I have Sam with me to drag into a pit of despair with... I should go empty my Academics files and write some... chiz

14.29 on 7.29

A lots happened you could say... but a lot always happens when time passes. I came back from camp a long time ago but I just haven't had it in me to post. I miss camp so bad. But I'm starting to have nightmares about high school, and they're getting to be pretty bad. My mom took my usb drive out of the computer and put it in my room while I was at camp. It is now lost. That thing had ALL of my writing on it. Lost... I don't have the energy to search for it... All the last few weeks have been is work and reading... I made a cake so I should probably go ice that soon... But I'll force one poem out of me... even if it stinks...

13.45 on 6.21

I think today is the summer solstice. Yesterday we had some desert social thing for girl scouts... We were so totally like almost 5 star restaurant class! Muhahaha! Then I went over to Ariella's for an emergency sleepover with the gang. I also just got back from Quebec City in the province of Quebec in Canada. It was amazing other than my sister, and her deleting over three hundred pictures of Quebec. They are my art form. Sorry that I haven't checked my email or blogs or anything.... I haven't been on a computer... right now I'm on Ariella's and hotmail isn't working and I don't know half the web sites for the blogs. And today I'm going to my grandmother's to learn how to sew on knits and relax and get away from Ava and the world... I really need to. I won't have much internet connection up there.... I apologize in advance. Then I'm back for four days and then off to camp for three weeks... Sigh... It's a busy summer and I have so much that I need to do other than be away from my house. Got to go.

14.58 on 6.7

Hello everyone... So I went to Hershey park for Music in the Parks... Wind Ensemble, Jazz Band, and Women's Choir all got superior and first place... Studio got superior and came in second to Lake Bradoch (or however you spell it) we had a 99 and 95 early in the morning... and they had a 100 and 99... they got the 100 because we got a 99 and they were slightly better... Mr. Simon's happy surprisingly and content with wat we got...

So it was my first time in an amusement park away from the shore... First big rollercoaster was Farenheit... Waited for 2 hours in that line... I also rode Storm Runner, Lightning Racers, and Wildcat and Chocolate World once. A lot of people didnt even know i was in studio... and I'm sorry sam...

I also got to fence at the Scottish Games... i put up the best fight personally (i was watching for a while) and i was the only girl i think... I ate a bridie and 2 fruit smoothies... It was hot and disgusting but amazing

15.16 on 6.4

Good job on the final everybody... i got a 64.... *blows her bangs out of her eyes* does the world seem out to get me much???

By the way... the red gummy bear is the world and I'm the yellow one... currently getting squished and killed simultaneously...

16.41 on 5.19

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!!!! Ok! I get it... we either need to be completely SILENT or express every view that we have... I never knew I was so contraversial... We ARE ONLY HUMAN!!!! Maybe I should have stayed the silent observer yet again... I DO NOT... and AM NOT GOING BACK TO BEING A WALL FIXTURE! That's how I survived since elementary school... it was different in Europe... It's not possible for me to go back now...

AND JUST SO YOU KNOW! I'M SORRY IF I HUNG WITH MY P2P FRIENDS MORE THAN YOU! I TRIED TO GET YOU GUYS TO MESH! I guess you can't always get a perfect match... they might know more of my soul... And I'm sorry about that... We need to have a sleep over... And we aren't sleeping... we are spilling our souls onto a table... And no snide comments

And I'm sorry that I cant seem to get over Feng... I'm working my butt off trying too... It took me how long to get over Gage? It took Sam how long to get over Corey? It takes any of us HOW LONG TO GET OVER A GUY WE THOUGHT WE WERE IN LOVE WITH?!?!? I KNOW I still love him... Allow me this one painful indulgence... I'm ripping myself away from him to wait... This is the third and last time... I can't force myself to hate him... Give me time... I'll try... And the only thing keeping me alive is "I will survive" that song... I'll keep on fighting till I know that it is done... You've gotta let me get over these obstacles... If I don't I'll regret it for the rest of my life because it will be unfinished buisness...